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What I didn't expect was to have an identity crisis. On the end of day one, Fawn Weaver asked us to close our eyes and envision our blogging goal, where we see ourselves going, essentially. I stared at the back of my eyelids with an abundance of thoughts swirling and just couldn't hone in on one. Fawn's talk was extremely powerful and I'm so glad to have seen her speak. However, I left feeling a bit lost and confused about my place in the blogging world.
I have always struggled with the idea of "niche" blogging. This is your expertise or category of blogging. Such as food, crafts, fitness, or even more specific like, mountain biking or something. Right now my niche is lifestyle. This basically means I blog about everything my lifestyle contains. Yeah, it's pretty broad and only other bloggers really understand this when you give it as an answer to "So, what's your blog about?" That's a question I discovered I dreaded. That's probably not a good sign.
|That's me with the pink tutu and tie. I still agree with what I wrote too. Do what makes you happy and accept others.|
Maybe it's because I never liked labels. I have always said "I'm not weird, I have character" but now I realize I am also weird, but that's fine by me. If everyone likes something, I usually distance myself from it. (I've never seen Titanic or The Matrix, for example) I was most voted Most Unique in High School. I have had early every hair style and color you can think of. I gave myself (kickass) One Direction nails and I am thirty years old. I am okay with the things that make me ME.
That's where this blogging identity crisis becomes a crisis. How can I set boundaries on the blog, my section of the interwebs? If I focus on one niche, I feel I am not showing my full self. I am labeling myself and in a sense, stifling other parts of me. I have changed and grown as a person in the past year and a half since starting this blog, and I will continue to do so. Shouldn't my blog reflect those changes? Shouldn't my blog show who I am so people can feel a connection with me? Seriously, I'm asking for answers to these questions. I'm in crisis mode here people.
I have gained followers, albeit a small amount, and I sometimes feel that I can't just change my blog's focus on them. They signed up as reader for one thing, but maybe not the next. Will one day of crazy toddler stories and the next day an in depth analysis on what Harry Styles' hair smells like (didn't write it, but tempted) really keep this whole blog going?
Even adding in my weight loss posts has been a struggle because it has really become a big part of Pirate Prerogative's content and message. But, I would never leave that part out. It is HUGE in who I am as a person and a big part of my success is in making my progress public.
If I were to list my interests, this is what I'd get as a starting point:
Cooking (love cooking, HATE blogging about it)
One Direction (yes, it makes the list)
How I Wish I Was Crafty
I'd totally read that blog. Well I wouldn't, because I pretty much have no time for reading the blogs I intend to. But if I made time I would. Time is a serious blogging battle. That lists seems easy and specific enough to focus on, but there is so much involved in each post. I find that I talk myself out of writing because of all the work and the thought that it will all suck.
So, where I'm at in this whole blog thing is a loss for inspiration. I have slightly withdrawn from my blogger duties of sharing my posts and engaging on social media. Doing those things is a reminder that I'm so freakin' confused. I do not like reminding myself of this.
I also need to build my traffic, but that's difficult for many reasons.
1. You need content to create traffic
2. You need to know who your reader is to reach them
3. You need to work hard getting your content out there
4. Time. Always time.
Any thoughts or advice is welcome.
I don't plan on making my exit. I still like it here. I hope you still like it here too, even if I change it up.
In the words of Bobby Brown, "It's my prerogative."