Monday, June 30, 2014

Shedding My Pirate Booty Week Forty-Four

Goal Meme - Goooooooooooooal!

Well it finally happened after forty-four long weeks. I finally hit my original goal weight. Although that cat above is very excited, I am not quite as celebratory. Why? When I set out to hit my goal weight over sixty pounds ago, it seemed like a great place to end up. 

It is wonderful to be here, but it's not where I want to be any longer. I have made many changes to my diet and lifestyle that have in turn, changed me. I am not the same person I was at 228 pounds, thank goodness. Now I don't want to be just a bit overweight. I want to be healthy and in a healthy weight range as well.

MyFitnessPal week 44 Stats for Shedding My Pirate Booty

Week Forty-Four Results: 

Calories Burned Exercising: 1779
Net Calories Consumed: 9633/9450
Weight Lost:  -2 lbs,  -63 lbs total
Current Weight:  165 lbs

I am also mad at myself for not being where I wanted at this stage in the game and for having a slow week. It all makes sense when I look at the numbers. the bottom line is I am just not exercising enough right now. I have been majorly slacking in this department. I didn't run twice and I didn't work out at home. I told myself that I was going to, and then when the time came I let my internal excuses talk me out of it. 

I know I am not in a place any longer where I will gain the weight back. I just want to be in the place where I am still driven to lose. Plateaus are a real thing that happens to the body. However, I think I am experiencing a mental plateau. That magic number of 165 has been my goal for so long that it is hard to wrap my mind around a lower number. Yet, I also can't enjoy this achievement. I am stuck somewhere in the middle.

Content. That is where I am at in this journey. I am not a person who strives for just "content." I want to be happy, thrilled, proud, accomplished, badass, and all sorts of other words that do not come up in the definition of just content. I want to look back and be like "Holy shit! I did that. It was hard, but I still did it." 

I guess that means I am finally doing things right. Honestly, so far things have been easy. I haven't had any real struggles, my weight loss has been consistent and steady. I have had success and stayed the course. Until now. Now it sucks and I am struggling. This must be that hard part that I am striving to overcome. This is that defining moment that earns me those words I listed. This is my time to leave the safe zone of "content" in hopes of making it to much more exciting "badass" zone. 

It's time to kick ass. My ass.

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